Christ.

It's driving me insane.

I don't know what to do.

It's on my mind a lot now. Just dealing with it all, the same little... issue that could bring me no harm.

Gah.

this is terrible. I resulted to XANGA. Lmao.

Still with my baby.

Now, I've been with Adam for a year and a month.

New record, huh?

Yeah, I love him. He's pretty much amazing

I wouldn't change this for the world..

I am happier than I ever been.

This ring he gave me, it's probably the most beautiful ring I have ever seen.   It's getting fitted right now, I'm supposed to get it Friday. 

It's great, really.

I just miss one thing.

one little thing.

singing together on the phone, jumping on the trampoline and laughing my ass off to the way we harmonized to TBS.

It's been a tough year, though. Well, 2007 was. Now entering 2008 one family member less.   I feel as if I've grown older that my age on the inside.  I've seen too much. Been through too much.   Experienced too much, and still too little.

I don't know

As the saying/song goes, "I'm much too young to feel this damn old"

Basically.

It's been forever since I've even looked at this thing. So I'm gonna go ahead and update it.

 I am currently dating a guy named Adam Daniels. We've been dating since the 7th of December 2006. Good, eh?  Yeah. Tomorrow he's taking me out.

He's the best anyones been to me. Ever. Seriously.

But sadly, something is wrong. And I don't know if it is something in our relationship, well.. actually, I'm pretty sure it isn't but I don't know. I'm not for TOTAL sure. See, I feel like something bad is going on. That something is wrong.

There shouldn't be any ( if ands or buts ) anywhere in my life. But there is. I'm scared. I don't know I really don't know.

He keeps me happy, really.. most of the time. But I don't know what to do about this. I really don't know what to say about it.

He's perfect. Mostly everything is perfect but a single feeling. Maybe I'm used to hurting? .. and I'm scared something is going to work it's way into hurting me?

 I HAVE NO CLUE.

Hopefully it's not. Hopefully this is one of the FEW bad feelings I get that I am wrong about.

Anyways.

Yeah.

I thought I'd do this. Plus, I'm bored.

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Err. I know, weird entry. But this is for me.

You know what make's a person feel like shit?

"Can I use your eyeliner?"

Best friend:

"Not to be mean, but I just don't want nobody stealing OUR (her best friend) little thing going on"

Yeah, I have a best friend and they treat me like hell and shit mixed together. I think they think they do nothing wrong.

-sighs-

Which makes them not my best friend anymore.

I shall cry,.

in a public place.